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Saturday, January 15, 2005

a part of my LIFE


listening to : true - ryan cabrera
mood : not so good
current status : exploring the wonders of Story of the Year

It went good is all I would like to say. GOOD GOOD GOOD. What the chocolate puding am I talking about you ask? ITS MY DRUMS CLASS. Yeah baby. I HAD A GOOD DRUMS CLASS. [releases a big satisfaction sigh]

Ok dash the whole wrong wrist movement BUT THE HECK WITH THAT. I did good. And I am finally putting more effort to it now that I'm good again. LETS GATHER ROUND THE CAMPFIRE AND SING THE CAMPFIRE SONG. [I just felt like singing it, don't ask me why]

And my guitar is not bad too. It hasn't been bad before though. And my teacher gave the She Will Be Loved song on notes. OOO. ME LOVE. And he promised to tecah me Kau Ilhamku next week. I know I've got to play both notes and chords for the song but I'm still excited. And I too told him I worte songs of my own and he was like, 'HOW DO YOU DO THAT. GIVE ME THE NOTES' and I'm like.. 'teacher its only chords'. YISHK

And I got GUMBALLS. Yum.

In response to Miza's strike, I decided to change my song already. Don't get me wrong, I'm not
betraying Yellowcard. I just want comments. And besides, I don't think its such a good idea to listen to the song too much as I will get bored of it and I refuse to let that happen. Coz thats what happened the song One Year Six Months bye Yellowcard. I heard it too much I just don't feel the WONDERNESS of the song no more. So..

Here is the song I chose. Superman by Five For Fighting. I like this song. But my guess this won't be long too. I'm afraid I'll hate it later due to hearing overload. So we'll se what happens. So THERE IS NO REASON FOR ANY OF YOU TO NOT COMMENT ANYMORE

Ayong is coming back soon. Next month and I am planning to play her her favourite song. A little piece from Edwin McCain titled "I'll Be". Knowing how much she will tease me for my singing [even though we duet-ed before], I chose the notes version of the song. So I don't need to sing, instead the guiatr will do it for me. And we both can be happy. Yay!

I drag my weekend as I have TONS of homework. Its only the second week of school and yet the torture has begun.Spare me God. But at least I still haven't lost interest in learning. Heck I cannot ever do. But my Fiziks teacher makes it.. boring. And yet I still can hear her teach you know. Its weird. Well, we're to start on experiments and reports now, or should I say the GOOD part so YAY.

Ok. Needless to remind me of the disaster of Form Two's debate competition, our team did BAD. Well I did at least. And it doesn't help either that we were against a good team at that so we lost. At least we got a certificate for taking part so YAY. And I am determine to overcome my stage fright and to do that , I decided to join the team this year. I'm excited. And I feel as if my stage fright is not so bad this year. I feel as if I can do it. So I'm doing it. And Gg too. So we'll get through this together.

The only problem is that it might be between schools and not only classes. And that I can't deal with. But the certs. I can. Well whatever it is, I am to be a better person. I'm to be more active and improve my results. again I say.. NO EXCUSES FOR NOT GETTING TOP TEN.

I have been neglecting my Bukit Kepong now that the deadline is over and the teacher haven't mentioned it since. I am in the middle of the war. 4 hours of it and I've only passed 2. And I'm already getting bored of it. Don't get me wrong, I like the book. I like the story I really do. But the fact that all that was mentioned about the war is about 'this guy police person is shooting at this side of the place. his gun is out of bullets. he went to get more. e was shot. he's dead.' THERES LOADS OF THIS!!!!! I even lost track of who's alive and who's dead. TOO MUCH OF IT!!

But despite that, its a mystery why I haven't just put down the book in the middle of it, or just SKIP. I somehow want to read what the story got to say. Even the whole 'he shoots. his dead' part. It just keeps me wanting to read. So I'm starting to read it again soon.

So a little fact. In 3 days, I would have become Miss Shahrul's Girlfriend for half a year now. It doesn't feel so long but few of my friends agreed that it is. Is it really that long considering the fact that I think that its normal relationship period. But correct me if I'm wrong. And I have to plan a surprise for the day. And I'm fresh out of ideas. Help!?

Ever heard of chewing overload?! Well now you have. I've chewed too much gum my jaw hurts so I'm to rest it now. CHEWING TOO MUCH BAD! GUMBALLS TOO MUCH GOOD!

- I'm more than a bird. I'm more than a plane. I'm more than just some pretty face, in some pink girly dress.
*15 January 2005*

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 7:06 pm | 4 Comments

games GALLERY!


listening to : someday we'll know - mandy moore and janathan foreman
mood : okay
current status : I don't think it'll remain good anytime soon. My mom is in her moods.

Abah currently bought me a computer game called Vampires: The Masquerade - Bloodlines. Sound WOO right? And You'd be thinking. OK this girl is a girly girl so why is she playing a game of Vampires. Killings. and Bloods. Simple answer. I LOVE IT. Bet you never expected THAT. But its true. All my psTwo games are about Mysteries, Ghosts, Killing, Shooting and Haunting. No kidding. Come see it. These are my games.

Ps2..

Vampire Nights - Its a first person shooting game. The objective is to pass stages of 10 or so by killing vicious vampires and their evil creatures and in doing so save the world from destruction. One of the Vampires I admit is pretty hot!

Fatal Frame - This game allows you to play as Miku, a girl who's brother has dissapared in an old haunted house when he were researching the place and she is out to find her missing brother and bring him back. ALONE. The house is truly deserted. At least thats what they'd like you to think. But actually the place is full of old spirits and ghosts and the only way of defeating them is to SNAP A PICTURE OF THEM. What the puding I know! But its fun. And scary.

Kingdom Hearts - What happens when you put anime characters and put them with disney characters? Well, you get this. I haven't finished the game but its basically adventures after another. Its pretty boring I have to say but its a game!

Silent Hill 2 - So I haven't been up to playing the game yet. Its just there. But think about it. Silent Hill right? I like it. Its killing-ish and ghostly-ish. PERFECT.

Fatal Frame II - This game is about two sisters getting lost in the woods and found an old haunted place thingy and one of them was to scared to go through it but the other was determined to. And explore they did. But as you know.. terror awaits...

Clock Tower 3 - Its about a girl who discovered that she was the only one who can SAVE THE WORLD or so it seems. She has to end the Brutal Crusade of the Evil Servants. Sounds funny and twisted but these servants are no joke. They're ugly and they can fly!But to do so she has to summon some sacred weapon crap thingy. I haven't started this too.

American Idol - Ok this is an exception of the whole death games gala. The obejective of the game is to sing proeperly, dress nicely and make the judge like you. Get votes and WIN. Easy as a pie. There are a few nice songs too. Owh and guess what! I am an American Idol for 5 times running! Ahhahah.

Harry Potter Quidditch - The anme itself tells you the reason I own this game.

Computer..

The Sims - The objective of the game is to control a life of a family of your own. Direct them to eat, sleep, work, mate, mingle, and basically get through the day. Its really fun. You can ask them to do whatever you want. You can even evil-ly burn them to crisp in the raging fire and laugh about it. Anything babey!

Nancy Drew Mysteries - I have many of these. You play as a first person view Nancy Drew and basically you have to solve a mystery. Talk to poeple, get clues, go to secret passageways and get secret codes and meet poepel and all that comes with it. Its fun, its not all that scary and very.. shall I say.. mysterious.

Shadow Hearts - One of my favourite games. You play a guy [with icky long hair I might add] who was just walking out of the coffee shop one day and was stabbed. He was brought to a so called 'hell' and met this demon called 'who remembers his name'. He's a voice of a guy buy he looks fag so I don't know. And theres every stage where you go back in time again and again to stop the cause of his death. Up to the year 1940-s. And he felt in love with an old lady. Well technically she's not old in her time, which is in the 1940's so get the picture?! Its a fun game.

Harry Potter Adventures - Get through every year defeating Voldemort or something like it and survive and be the hero once again!

So here are a list of 'Games-I-PLay' and is there a girly girl game!? DON'T THINK SO! So looks, loudness and pink can be deceiving. Ahahahha. I ain't so girly girly. Though I admit I do like pink and accesories and Barbies but I also neglect owning antything fuzzy, or cute, like a teddy bear, or cute stuff animals. Seriously, the disgust me. But a cow purse, I'd still do. And please, I feel it is very neccasary for me to say.. I HATE HELLO KITTY AND I HATE ANIME-S. There.

- Don't judge me by my girly-ness.. Its all about the gmaes baby!! AHahahah. Correct em if I'm wrong.

*15 January 2005*

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 6:10 pm | 1 Comments

Thursday, January 13, 2005

schOOL


listening to : gifts and curses - yellowcard
mood : good
current status : hungry [ no G! I'm not tamak! ]

you seriously don't think that Atikah is the only one that can have a song in her blog! well you have another THINK coming! coz it ain't gonna work like that babey!! coz I too have insert a song in me bloggie! the title is gifts and curses by Yellowcard. This is one of my current favourite song!!

ME LOVE YELLOWCARD! ME LOVE THEIR SONGS! ME LOVE RYAN KEYS! ME LOVE EVRYTHING BOUT THEM!!

ok so a little something something for you guys to know! I am now currently stuck to the word babe! You'd be hearing me say that loads. Maybe not in the blog but you'd be hearing it from me.

OK so anyways, let me give you an update about me. I am currently tired, fat and lazy. And yet I still haven't lose my interest of learning form 4 yet. Which is SO GOOD!!

Add Maths - heck it may be rubbush but I like 'em! Maybe I have expected it to be such a killer that it being not as bad as i expect makes it kind of.. easy.. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to sound superficial, clever or insane. I just like. add. maths.

Fiziks - ok so its confusing I don't deny. And the teacher is not exactly being as Mr. Jaacob-y as I like her to be. Heck she's far from that. But how bored I was with her class today, I forced myself to listen to every SINGLE thing she said. I listened to her I did. Fiziks is pretty fun when you understand them. I'm not saying I like them LIKE them, I'm just saying I don't hate them.

Chemistry - ok straight out say it. I DON'T LIKE IT!! Well so far! Its not that bad actually. Just the teacher makes it. so. sucky. And everyone knows that part of the interest of a subject is based on the teacher who teaches it. And I give this teacher a 4. And it ain't good. And I've only had one class of it. And I don't really understand much but I tend to make it good! Owh little known fact. I'm worst in this part of Science.

Accounts - Let see. The teacher is not so bad. She's just.. unique! I heard that she is the bets in the subject so I guess lucky can be put as one issue here. And she gives notes and for some freaky reasons, I seem to like taking them. But this class has brought my attention rate down. But I still need to CONCENTRATE!!

Malay Language - Blurgh. Surprise you are! The teacher I tell yah!!

English - the teacher could be better!

Modern Maths - geez! they had to send a kid to us! But he's so humble and gullible. And he has problem I tell yah! He's paranoid! He has a childhood trauma I tell yah! JUST. SO. PARANOID!
And he snaped at me so that brings him to a 5.

Islam Learnings - same old ustazah but the class could be better.

History - The teacher is a text book teacher but he's not so bad. Not yet at least.

So there you go! My school! My studies! Thethings I have to go through EVERY weekdays. Yikes!

And I feel a wee bit pissed right now. My aunt just came for a visit here at my house and she just CAN'T STOP TALKING BOUT HER SON!!! who by the way just got 9 A's. She kept going, 'he just got 9A's so we're sending him to a nice school for smart poeple', 'shasha you gotta study smart, like shamil, he's taking loads of subject and yet cna still score', '6A's is good enough but SHamil was shocked he got 9A's and we're so proud', 'I can't believe Shamil got into this school where they train you to get 12As for SPM, the normal school is just 9 so take as much as possible'

OWH SHUT UP!!!!!

He kept going on. The look on my mom's face tells me she was thinking of the same thing. And I felt bad as she had to settle with me getting only 6As instead of a perfect 9 like Shamil! I feel stupid again!

Ok enough about that, I just want to really concentrate on my studies in form 4 and outsmart my 6As. And really do well in my exams. And my class has no more Rachel or Sachin or any of those poeple that has a super smart brain. So theres no reason for me to not get top 10! I SAID NO!!! If I did, then I am a certified IDIOT!!

Little laughter for you all. I was out one night to go buy a book and the replacement of my lost pencil. So I was waking happily to Edition, at the walkway. It was raining at the time so the floor was a lil bit wet. OK a lot! And my slipper's base is slippery too. With much confident I walked towards the shop and I tripped falling flat on my butt. I was hoping beyond hope beyond hope no one saw that coz it was pretty dark, I looked forward and thank GOD I saw no one, until I heard voices behind me.

I didn't dare to look back, I just skidded back to my mom who didn't saw the incident. She was laughing when she heard what happened. And it hurt me, and it embarrassed me like DANG!! So I pretended nothing had happened but I seriously pouted my lips. Ahahahha! IT HURT!!!!!

So now my knee is swollen and whenever its pressed, the pain LIVES!! and my palm hurts a little too. Lucky my ass is PAIN-FREE!! Giggles. So keep your self AWAY from my knees or you might have your knee swollen!

So thats 2 weeks of school! And now I have drums and guitar to practise! Again up to the last minute of practising! But I kinda did it a little before so I'm just to brush up today! Owh the lazyness of it all!!!

Gg and I have had this thing going on. We brought out baby pictures and was melting and squeeking over each other's pictures. She was truly truly cute! And on the same day we had a spot check going on. And at the moment my pictures were with Shahrul and Gg's with Fawwaz. Both of us were scared that the prefects might confiscate our pictures if the guys didn't keep it properly. Thank God they weren't even checked.

So its all goody now..

- 'why did I say all the things before I was sure..'

*14 January 2005*

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 9:08 pm | 0 Comments

Wednesday, January 12, 2005

let me be MYSELF


this is my latest aka 5th song. I finished it about today, and it took me about 20 minutes to finish it. I know its bizarre and you might think its ridiculous to have done it for such a short period. But the song, and the words, the tune and the WHOLE THING just came to me like BAM and it leads me to this song. Its kind of a rockish song and its pretty weird. Unlike my other songs. I thought it was normal to write about love hate relationships between guys and girls so this song is entirely a new concept. Its about a girl sick of being told what to do with her life by her mom. I know you've heard songs like this before but I took a shot so what the hey. Its just simple chords though. No biggie.

Let Me Be Myself
My momma tells me that
I should be more polite
So then I'll be a bride
But I told her
That I don't care

My momma tells me that
That I should not be sad
Coz it is very bad
But I told her
That I don't care

Coz I'm a girl
And I have my own world
And I just want to be free
Coz I'm a girl
And I don't need
Anyone telling me
To be someone I'm not

My momma tells me that
That if I dress up bad
Then I'll just look like a lad
But I told her
That I don't care

My momma tells me that
That I should be the girl
Who doesn't make 'em hurl
But I told her
That I don't care

Coz I'm a girl
And I have my own world
And I just want to be free
Coz I'm a girl
And I don't need
Anyone telling me
To be someone I'm not

I dress how I like
I walk like my pride
I go back to bed
Whenever I want

I don't need anyone telling me
To be someone I'm not

Coz I'm a girl
And I have my own world
And I just want to be free
Coz I'm a girl
And I don't need
Anyone telling me
To be someone I'm not

Coz then I won't be me

-pathetic ain't it? its kinda rock-ish, so if you don't like it.. Let me tell you.. I DON'T CARE. ahahah

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 9:01 pm | 0 Comments

say you'll STAY!


this is actualy my 3rd song but I refuses to put this up in my blog as I didn't wnana ruin the surprise for Atikah and Tasnim as this is the song I wrote it as a goodbye song for them. But since they're not anywhere else, but still here, I decided to just post it up! So here goes..

Say You'll Stay
La.. la.. la.. la.. [2]

You wave goodbye
I don't know why
You hwve to go
Say it isn't so

You've taken away
A part of me
You leave me here
Alone in fear

But I know you'll be back
We'll have to keep track

And I say goodbye
I know it'll be fine
Just say goodbye
Goodbye
But keep me in mind
And one day we'll find

I close my eyes
Thinking of you
Thinking of all
The things we've been through

I cried myself
To sleep every night
I bare the times
We had those fights

But I know you'll be back
We'll have to keep track

And I say goodbye
I know it'll be fine
Just say goodbye
Goodbye
BUt kee me in mind
And one day we'll find

But now you're gone
But now you're gone
But now you're gone
Away from me

But I know you'll be back
We'll ahve to kee track

And I say goodbye
I know it'll be fine
Just say goodbye
Goodbye
Just keep me in mind
And one day we'll find

La.. la.. la.. la.. [x2]

But I'll know you'll be back
We'll have to keep track
But I'm gonna miss you

- But whats the point of the song now?!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 7:56 pm | 1 Comments