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Friday, October 15, 2004

bBq SHOWDOWN!!


listening to : staind - so far away
mood : sad
current status : mopey!!

why did I let you drag me to school again miza!? Owh yeah! Coz I'm your friend. Most of my girlfriends were planning to go to Times Square with the guys and I couldn't go as mom wouldn't allow me. So I was being all, sad, as I thought I'd miss out on one of my social outings! But Atikah made me feel better when she talked to me.

She told me that Hamiza wasn't allowed to go to and that all 3 of us would go to school tomorrow (which is on wednesday) and hang out together. I was all.. 'huh? yeah ok!' and that night, I was out with Ashraf and Shahir and Shahid hanging out at Ashraf's house playing guitar at about 10 o'clock. As it has been a long time since I played my guitar, holding a guitar made me feel all 'woo-wee'. I felt like saying hello to an old friend. OK ok!

I played the only song that was in my mind that time, Kau Ilhamku! Ashraf and I duet-ed the song and it sounded real cool. After I got bored of that song, Shahir asked back for his guitar and they were playing Diabetes (me, ashraf's and shahir's song) After that, I suggested the song 'talk shoe on mute- incubus' and the two of them played that song. I was fascinated. It sounded real cool. So as I was addicted to the song, I kinda memorize the lyrics, so I sang them that song! It fits and it sounded so cool! I had my phone as the mic! It was real fun! And then we played the song 'swing swing- all american reject' and I sang it too! It was so cun!

Later Atikah called to say Hamiza is going to that thing and that the whole, spend time at shcool thing was canceled. I turned mopey again! Haih.. Life can be so unfair. But then again, considering my life and poeple who lives in Iraq, I have such a good life. Yeap. Anyways, the guys immediately saw me going mopey and them being them didn't really care because they guessed I must've been going through the whole girl PMS thing and they've so used to that.

When I got home, Diana called and she said she was not going coz she wasn't comfortable about who knows what and we spent about half an hour talking about.. SHTUFF!! (as atikah likes to say it. heheheh. ) then I on-ed and hamiza told me that she wasn't going to. I'm like, weird out coz one minute I was told that she's not going, the next she is, and coming back saying she's not! Weird eyh!? ANyways, the final desicion was that she's not and she had to go off so I was the one in charge to ROPE atikah to coming to school tomorrow.

Eventually she gave in, and I also did my CHARM on gG. The two of them must've really hated me for persuade-ing them to come. And god! It was boring! School was HELL! The only reason Atikah and Gg was there were because of me, and the reason Diana was there was because we might be cooking again, and the only reason I came was because of Hamiza, and the reason Hamiza came was because GOD KNOWS WHAT!

After we played truth-or-dare, I felt like EXPLODING! Seriously, I couldn't take it anymore! I was SO BORED I could even play chess! And I've always hated Chess! So we did the thing that we should've done way before! Ditch school! And we went to Hamiza's house to bake INSTANT brownies! Hahahha! Tasnim were to have a bBq party later that night and we thought we'd to surprise her with our brownie! It was kinda fun to make it!

You know, get a bowl, put the thing in there, and put this other thing, then crack the eggs, then stir them, the greese the pan, the pour it into the pan then BAKE! Yeap! FUN!! Well, the thought of doing it together counts! We bonded! Thats the most important part. Before we got to the cookies, mom made me go home or else I were not to go to Tasnim's Party. So I had to go home and dread myself thinking how fun they were to have baking cookies while I do whatever at home. And imagining how they can pull it off without me! : P hahah! Just kidding!

I didn't wanna walk home alone and I had an alternative. That is to ride on my old school bus. My brother was about to go off and it was to send my brother home. And it'd be great chance to RELIVE my childhood memories. So what the hey! Yes! I went back with a school bus. It was kinda fun to sit back at the same spot I use to sit. It just reminds me of the olden days!

And one thing I've come to realize, is that, THE KIDS WERE SO SMALL!!!
I mean, thinking about it, 'was I THAT small when I was in primary school'. I use to think that when I'm in standard 6, I'm owh so mature and big and good enough! But boy was I wrong! I mean, I look at the kids and think, are they big enough to even know these stuff or those swear words they're saying and imagining how I was so ridiculous before! It was funny to think about it!

I dread myself at home thinking how much fun they were having and me being all stuck at home playing computer. But it all payed of that night at Tasnim's.

Mama wasn't very keen on letting me go coz she has this whole policy about going out at night and what it may LEAD to. But I guess she didn't want me to miss out on a social outing too. I got to gG's house and we both went to Tasnim's house. I LOVE HER NEIGHBOURHOOD! I mean, the houses were so big and beautiful. When we got there, Tasnim greeted us with a big smile and when we got in, Hamiza sprang out on me and grabbed my hand to invite me to sit! I was weird out as Hamiza is usually the 'contained' one and I was the one who was suppose to be going all hyper! But I guess the sugar sweet bonanza she had that day has got into her head. RIGHT......

We had a tank full of fun that night! It was never as much fun ust to sit around in a circle of us girls and just talked, getting all hyped up AND VERY VERY LOUD! We were all up against Ainul that night for some reason. But it was fun whatsoever! I have never been addicted to Grapes before but Tasnim's grapes were SCRUMPTEOUS! ( if thats how you spell it) I was picking them out like I was picking out apples to start an apple juice business! Yeap! They were delicious! After that, the guys went for a walk so we had the garden to ourselves. And what did we make do with it!? Its our PLAYFIELD!

We played 'run around and tickle each other' and me, atikah and gg played 'kick her ass!!' hahah! It was fun! I was running around chasing, and being chased. I got exhausted after that that I just had to sit. When Tasnim's baby brother Adam came out, I just couldn't help it but to go play with him. I gave him a back ride and played 'whooosh!!' with him. He particularly enjoyed it. And he wasn't all that heavy too!!

Before we got home, we had a photo session where we just snap loads of photos! When I got home, I onlined and it was pretty interesting. And thats it! I ahve no memory of what happened after that.

- Adam suka main 'whoooossshh!!!!'

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 10:24 pm | 2 Comments

Thursday, October 14, 2004

hiGH!!


When you're close to tears remember

Someday it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
Though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love

Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
Cause even the impossible
Is easy when we got each other
One day we're gonna get so high

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love

(hiigh... hii-iigh) x 4

And at the end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the end
And wonder how we made it through the night
At the end of the day
Remember the way
We stayed so close to the end
We'll remember it was me and you

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky
Of love

Cause we are gonna be
Forever, you and me
You will
Always keep me flying high in the sky

-nice song..
Of love...

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 5:28 pm | 0 Comments

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

words of APPRECIATION!


this is one of those 'appreciation' posts where you just say what you really think..

I am to talk about all the people in my buddy list and messenger.. in order..

this one is for all my best buddies first..

gG - this ever so nice girl can really make you feel special. she can just put a smile on your face and you just love hanging out with her. she's just a good gal and she understands some parts of me. she can really listen to problems and suggest what to do. I really love her so much! she's one of my good friends and I wouldn't want that to change. but she hates my taste. but I don't care. And I love to annoy her!

shahrul - I can't really put my words to describe this guy. he can just be the most annoying person I've ever meet but that has never make me fall out of love for him. he's a real nice guy when you get to know him and he can just make me feel all good inside and out. he really understands me and he is there for me. he's just so sweet and he makes me feel appreciated and loved. he has taught me a lot about life and love and myself. he made me a better person and I wish we could be together for a long time. I really love him so extremely very much! hahaha!

hamiza - this little friend of mine. she's the most mature friend I've got but she is not the oldest. she usually does the thinking for most of us and she can just lift your spirit up. she's always so dark and mysterious. you can never figure the real her out unless she lets you. and by then, she tends to change her opinion. she thinks she's so gothic BUT YOU'RE NOT! hahah! she is the oldest friend I have and we've been best friends since primary school. she gives good advice and I love her so much! I wouldn't want to change her but I do wish to know whats going on in her head everytime..

pragash - this is the PACKAGE guy. when I say that I mean that he just has it all. smart, funny, good looking, nice and friendly. He knows what to say at the right time. he can make you feel better only by saying a few words. he's very weird at times too. and he really loves his girl. he's loyal and trustworthy but is always in his jiwang land. I love hanging around with him as he's the only one who understands and laughs at my stupidly stupid jokes. thanks pragash!

atikah - my partner in crime! hahaha! she's the girl who basically gets hyper with me all the time. the one girl I love to annoy most and she will always be to blur to make a come back! I love her this way and I know if I need someone to laugh at, she'll always be the one person I'll think of. No offence to her but she's just fun to joke around with. I'd always tease her and all but I never really mean it. I'm your friend and I love you! you have to always remember that. please don't lose touch and always remember me when you're perky or when you need to be! ; )

diana - the girl I look up to! she's the nice one. she's always so into the positive side. she never talks bad about poeple or never even think bad about someone i think. she's super smart and she'a way cool to hang around with. she always team up with me to annoy atikah and the 3 of us cannot be around each other or else we will get all hyped up and laughy. she doesn't really give good motivational talks (heheh) but she' can make you feel good about yourself. she's the most helpful girl I ever met and I love her!!!

shahir - my gordo. he's really annoying and we'd love to insult each other. but all I know is that I don't ever mean all those mean stuff I said to him. he's a great friend and he just nice and I think I don't appreciate him as much as I should. he always helps me even though he don't really want to. and I'll usually leave him waiting for me. I haven't been acting so nice to him and I'm to change. He's just the guy I can turn to when I need a brother. I rally love his company and love him as my best friend. I hope he'll never get bored of me and can put up with me!

tasnim - I'm never so close to this friend of mine. But I know one thing. She's a nice friend. She is sweet and always so polite and contained. put next to me, I don't think people would think we're friends as I'm always so perky and loud and she's always so.. not! but its fun to be friends with her as she can teach me how to restrain myself from being so hyper all the time. I love her too and I appreciate her friendship and the fact that she can bare with me!

ainul - PERCY!!! she's my stalker! she knows stuff about me.. and she loves to walk behind me. but that way, at least I know she have my back. we always make fun of each other. we won't be perfect if we don't. I never mean all those mean things I said to her but I know she doesn't take anything I say personally. she's very open and she knows how to give a good laugh. but don't think about going up to her when you need someone to cheer you up. she's no help! but if you want someone to make fun of, or to give you a good laugh.. go stalk her down!! hahah!! but non the less, I love being her friend.

shaen - slim! thats what I call him. I'm not so close to this guy. But I love talking to him online. He's really cool and nice and funny. I know it may sound weird when I say I miss him coz we're not so close to begin with but I do. And I owe him so much for my relationship with shahrul. he helped me a lot and has been a good friend to all of us. I think he's the most lucky guy among all of us as he gets most of the attention as we all here misses him dearly and always posts him stuff and keep him updated with everything. I love ebing his friend and I hope he feels the same way. he has been good help to all of us in many ways.

shameen - this one girl is fun to hang around with. she annoys me a lot with her obsession for Pierre but that has never stop her from ebing my friend. besides, i do that to her too. ahahah! I love her so much and she has been a great friend. We're more of playing mates than open up to each other mate but I do tell her some stuff. She's really weird but I love her as shameen!

izzati - though we don't see eye to eye on a lot of stuff, enough said that I love this girl. She is always patient with me though I know I tend to do stuff she hates. She's real secretive snd keeps stuff to herself. She has strong opinions on stuff but we'd never know as she never shows or tells. She likes to cover up stuff she said and some times its obvious that she did and it gets me annoyed at times. But when you get to know the real her, you'd know how much mature and experienced she is and you can just come up to her for help. she's very observent sometimes its scary. She knows more about me than I know and would not tell. But I know I love her.

fawwaz - I use to have a huge crush on him but things eventually changed. I could never get into his head and can never figure him out. He's always so personal and quiet. He can be so happy at one time, and can be totally angsty the next. He can be so nice to you someimes, and get so annoying the next. But he's real nice and sensitive in a good way. He keeps putting himself down thinking he's not good enough for the world and it always depends on his friends to convince him that we like him just the way he is. We wouldn't want him to change or be so nice at the same time. And you can tll him your problems and secrets. He's secretive and he's a good pal. I love to get to know him and being his friend.

ashraf - he's my miranda! hahah! he doens't know me as well as shahir does and I'm not as personally close to him as I am with shahir. But our relationship is up to the point where we're just to use to each other that our annoying behaviours and our insane-ness are just too used to. he taught me much about guitar and he's always the guy I can make fun of and push around. we don't share secrets, hopes and dreams but he's the guy I can count on and I love him for being my brother.

- I just LOVE all of you guys and theres only one thing I wish, is that you guys can bare with me.

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 2:21 pm | 7 Comments

Sunday, October 10, 2004

a little CREDIT!!


I just want to give a little credit to my friend Shane who is in England now.. I think this poem rocks!! and I nak promote sikit.. its gone big in England right, why not bring it back here to popularised too right!? I think this is a cool poem!

My Personal Slave
by Shaen Melewa

I’m making my brother my personal slave,
so now when I greet you my brother will wave.
He’ll do all my homework, he’ll take all my tests.
He’ll clean up my messes and wait on my guests.

He’ll hold out my hanky whenever I sneeze.
He’ll go take a bath if I play in the dirt.
He’ll eat all my spinach, then feed me desert.

He’ll empty the garbage and vacuum the floors
And finish my other pointless chores,
Like washing the dishes and mowing the yard
or anything else that’s hard.

I really enjoy all the effort I save,
by making my brother my personal slave.
And though I’ll admit how exciting it is,
I’m not sure it’s worth it, ‘cause next week I’m his.

Its funny right!? ahah! I was laughing when I read it. anyways.. good job shaen!!

- you better be reading this shaen. ahahha!


from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 2:40 pm | 0 Comments

noTE!


if theres any grammar, spelling or whatever stupid mistakes in my last 3 posts, its only coz I'm sleepy.. thanks.. bye!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 2:43 am | 0 Comments

how MERDEKA really feels..


listening to - god knows what!!
mood : bored
current status : pissed, bored and sleepy!!

So my whole PMR week was killer! That day.. I slaved myself in my agama books! Shahri came over and both of us were studying Agama like hell! I mean! Damn! I never studies and never thought I would be studying as much as THAT!! At the high point, I was actually just staring at blank space (though thats probably normal for me) and had this expression saying.. 'god! thats how studying really feels like'

Mama was all.. 'tidur awal hari ni, esok kena ada byk energy! boleh makan before pergi sekolah!' I was kinda excited to sleep early that night.. but I couldn't.. I laid on my bed for about 10 minutes and didn't even dozed off! CRAP right!? so I felt like I as just wasting time! anyways, shahrul called and we end up sleeping at 12.. hahahha! oops!

the first day tension rose up and stuff! Everyone was stressing out! The atmosphere was tense and fear.. My bm paper was not so bad.. but heck my agama was the killer disease! of the whole thing! CRAP!! susah gila!!!

I didn't concentrate much on my english! I only studied for literature 40 minutes before the exam! AND NONE OF WHAT I READ CAME OUT!! lucky before we went in the hall, rachel was telling everynoe whas the themes and stuff.. kinda save by that!

Science WAS A FUCKING HARD PAPER!! oops! I mean serious! If they don't lower the garf then evryone in Malaysia will fail science! Damn hard.. I was doing it and was practically half asleep! IN THE MIDDLE OF THE PAPER YES!!

But GEOGRAFI WAS FUN!! I know! Call me hypocrite! I use to LOATH geo! But now, ITS JUST FUN!! serious. Wasn't that hard for me but I tend to get excited over things thats not going to happen.. OWh well..

Math was fun! It was pretty easy.. But sejarah WAS HARD!! BUt I dare not balme anyone except myself! I mean! I read sains thoroughly before.. and did SO MANY geo latihan.. so its okay..
BUT I NEGLECTED MY SEJARAH! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT! CRAP LA!!

Its freaking PMR and I read it like.. flipping through the pages jer.. DAMN IT!! I regret that I HOPE FOR A MIRACLE for my sejarah! Haih.....

KH was pretty good too.. not so bad! the minute the teacher declare our freedom! I jumped up and hugged farah as she was the first person I saw.. JUst like I promised.. But after that was.. normal!

I went all.. 'PMR IS OVER!!' but I wasn't feeling so.. 'PMR IS OVER!!' hahahah..
I was happy sure but I didn't feel like it was THAT BIG OF A DEAL as I thought it would be.. Me and my girlfriends went to Syed to have Maggi Goreng thats PURE TAK SEDAP!!! Its too kering and NO! I didn't offer Diana coz its tak sedap! ahahah!

then I went back.. and that day.. I felt like SHIT! CRAP LA!

And I don;t even know why! Playing sims 2 pon not as excited as I thought I would be.. and especially when Shahrul told me he might not be able to join our outing! DAMN!!!

The the whole day went Ape Shit!! The night was so hectic.. There were so much to think about.. I was really sad.. Yesterday night was SHITTY! But after 12.. It got better! Shahrul and I stayed up late to chat! We were playing a freaking game in the middle of 2 o'clock in the morning.. can it get any weirder!? not to mention funner! hahahah!!!

then we went off and I slept!

I woke up at 9 today so that was pretty ok! I bgn terus had my brekfast! ahahha! nasi lemak was nice! hahaha!! after that the best part comes!

I CLEANED MY ROOM!

Hhahahah!! Can you believe it!? Its clean now.. I sweeped, I moped, I wiped, and even washed! ahahahah!! Everything imaginable! Too bad its not finish yet! I still have my books to sort out.. But my kipas is DUST FREE now!! I feel so relieved! And I CAN SLEEP ON MY BED ALREADY!! TONIGHT!!! It was packed with piles and piles of books, cassetes, clothers and stuff!! YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

then at noon, I went out until 6pm! Cool eyh! I came back ANd was all jumpy! I GOT MY HILARY DUFF NEW ALBUM!!!! But I have not yet heard all songs.. BUt I will!! Then I on-ed the computer and played the sims2.. its kinda fun la..! just hard to configure!

then, 'happily' I dragged myself to the dapur and made my brother Maggi.. my mom was tired and her tooth were aching.. which is why, nanti, I have to clean up the dirty dishes either.. I'm notuse to it.. but its only right and my maid is on her outing.. HAIH!!! I'M SO LAZY TO DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I went online and it was boring! I mean! Nothing to do! Well theres a lot to do actually, and a lot of poeple to talk to.. but its just NOT a lot of fun! haih.. And at about 1am, pragash came in and he WAS STUCK WITH ME!!! since atikah was busy with her fanfic, anf gg and fawwaz are busy too, pragash was the only one I can mope to! kesian him, he had to hear all those crap I told him! I am feeling kinda sucky now.. he made me feel better. THANKS PRAGASH!!

Emma had some stuff to talk about with me.. but thats all!

so now, I'm here doing my blog.. I'm tired and sleepy.. I have LOADS of dirty dishes calling my name, I haven't isyak, and I'm to play SIms 2 jap lagi! AT 2.30 am. CUN KAN!?

- 'farisa! I need to be clean! my butt is minyak-y from the stain of the food you ate just now!!'
DAMN!!!!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 1:56 am | 0 Comments