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Saturday, July 31, 2004

naKED!!


I wake up in the morning

Put on my face

The one that’s gonna get me

Through another day

Doesn’t really matter

What I feel inside

Coz life is like a game sometimes

Then you come around me

The walls just dissapeared

Nothing to surround me

Keep me from my fears

I’m unprotected

See how I’ve opened up

You’ve made me trust

Coz I never felt like this before

I’m naked, around you

Does it show

You see right through me and I can’t hide

I’m naked around you

And it feel so right

I’m trying to remember

Why I was afraid

To be myself and let the

Covers fall away

Guess I never had someone like you

To help me, help me

Fit, in my skin

Coz I never felt like this before

I’m naked, around you

Does it show

You see right through me and I can’t hide

I’m naked around you

And it feel so right

Ohh.. Yeah..

I’m naked..

Ohh.. Yeah..

I’m so naked around you

And I can’t hide

You’re gonna, you’re gonna see right through..

You’re gonna see right through

I’m naked around you..

I’m so naked around you

And I can’t hide

You’re gonna, you’re gonna see right through baby..

-I don’t mean naked literally..

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 10:56 pm | 0 Comments

life as a GAME!


listening to : myself think!
mood : happy happy song!
current status : just.. thinking..

its either I'm running out of games to play.. I am too 'glued' to my phone.. I just wanna waste my batteries.. or that I really do enjoy playing Snakes 2..

serious! I've been playing it like 2/7

24/7 means you do sumthing 24 hours in 7 days!
2/7 means you do sumthing 2 hours in 7 days!

hahahah! thats byk right! hahahha!

ok.. so my score now is like 2987! sikit lagi nak 3000! I guess thats why I've been more addicted to it.. I WANNA BREAK MY RECORD!!

but you know what I have discovered? I've discovered how much the game.. is like life itself! really!

ok! lets play 'kaitkan these things'.. think about it..

the snake - us!
the makanan - our goals in life!
the extra food - what we want!

at the beginning of the game, you start out.. free.. independant! you can go whatever course you want! you can go up and down.. go though the wall! I guess thats how you are when you're a kid! free! you can run around! caring about nothing! coz you know.. that there will always be someone to catch you when you fall.. and all you have to do it! enjoy your life as a kid! collecting your goals in life.. and by that age.. its only to be loved always! and its really easy to get what you want! because there are not many rintangan!

when the snake get longer.. we get older.. as a teenager! our life is harder.. our path is more narrow.. and there are uncertainty about the path that we will choose.. our choices are less.. and we have to jaga where we step into! jaga everything! and by now.. what we want! is not as easy to get as it was when we were little! as a teenager.. not getting what we want just.. sucks! since we're so use to it.. but we have to know.. that getting what we want.. cannot matter to you as much! as what we really have to go for! is our goals!

now you're all grown up.. you have chosen your path.. and all you can do is.. go trhough the same path.. on every round.. because you have to jaga to stay alive.. you're too long by then.. and what you want! you only get it if your lucky! if it comes in near you! but all you have to go for.. is you goals.. its what you have go for! what you live for by then! you'd be doing the same thing.. going through the same path you ahve chosen when you were a teenager.. and stick with it.. coz if you don't.. you'd bid your last goodbye!

when u think you're old enough and can't stay longer.. that your path is getting harder.. and you're getting older (longer), you feel like, you can't fight for more.. and then you'll fall! its

GAME OVER!!

poeple might not agree with me! but this is what I think about life its a challenge! you are who you are.. what you go for is your goals! and you'll only get what you want! when you have the chance! you can't get what you want everytime you wish for it! life is not like that!

Life is just A GAME!

shahrul! this was what I was thinking of when you asked me what I was thinking..

- you go for what you need! and you get what you want when you can!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 12:05 am | 2 Comments

Friday, July 30, 2004

fall to PIECES!


I dedicate this song to SC..

I looked away
Then I looked back at you
You tried to say
Things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through
Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

-chorus-
I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'cause I'm in love with you

You're the only one
I'd be with 'til the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

-chorus-

Want to know who you are
Want to know where to start
I want to know what this means
Want to know how to feel
Want to know what is real
I want to know everything, everything

-chorus(x2)-

I'm in love with you
'cause I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

-AVRIL'S songs are the COOLEST!!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 11:58 pm | 0 Comments

Thursday, July 29, 2004

ocean AVENUE!


There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow

If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away

- this song is so damn NICE!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 10:43 pm | 0 Comments

songs I'm ADDICTED to!


Listening to : Avril Lavigne – Forgotten

Mood : plain

Current status : scared that mom will bangun

I’m addicted to songs I’m telling you! I’m not exactly a RADIO person.. I’m more of a.. ‘watch the song with the video clip’ kinda person.. but since I’m suppose to study and stuff.. I have to pasang radio to keep me from getting bored.. And now I’m addicted to songs!

Ocean Avenue [YellowCard] – I always get up to my feet to DANCE and PRACE around the room singing the chorus of the song (since basically that’s the only part I know anyways).. and just jumping up and down and getting all crazy! I LOVE THIS SONG! It’s a special song for me..

Pieces of Me [Ashlee Simpsons] – I LOVE THIS SONG! But I haven’t heard this song lately.. I’m always late for the top 20 songs and this song is around no. 19 so I don’t hear it much.. but its one of the best song ever! I can relate to it.. to the song I mean.. I hope to hear it soon..

Leave [13 year old JoJo] – seriously.. If I knew that you could ditch school and become a singer at the age of 13! I would’ve had two albums by now! Hahah! Just kidding! Not that I have the voice anyways.. But I praise her! She rocks! Her song does anyways! AND SHE’S 13!!

Superstar [Jamelia] – ok ok! Getting bored of this song!I was crazy about it a few weeks ago.. Whenever I listen to it.. I’ll grab the remote and pretend it as a mike and act like a superstar whilst singing it! Hahahah! Live life a little!

Falls On Me [Third Eye Blind? I’m not sure!] – I LOVE THIS SONG! Hahahahah! Serious! It’s a really cool song.. And I kinda like his voice.. It’s a really cool song and stuff!

Love Is Only A Feeling [ The Darkness ] – not much into the song! Its kinda ok I guess.. I just dgr je lagu nih.. this song is more of a.. ‘ok I need to concentrate on my reading for a while.. tell me when the song is done!’ Kinda song

In The Shadow [ The Resmus ] – no wonder you guys love this song so much! Sedap lar! I love this song too! Its so.. dark! Hahah! I dunno.. the guys of the band are pretty scary though.. dark hair and dark everything you know.. gothic? But they’re osng is pretty cool!

The new song [ Blue ] – TAK BEST!!!!

The Reason [ Hoobastank ] – Basically, whenever I hear this song.. I’ll rush to my room.. Grab my drums sticks.. Grab a chair.. and play the song on my imaginary drums set! Hahahah! Seriously, I Do! Nak practise or stuff like that lar.. I am p[retty tired of the song already! TOO MUCH!

Check It Out [ Beastie Boys ] – lets just say.. Its not my kind of music.. NOPE!

Burn [ Usher ] – I like Yeah! better!

Roses [ Outkast ] – Can’t get enough of the song! At least not yet! But I like to watch the videoclip better! Its so interesting! I LOVE THE VIDEO CLIP! Hahhaha! It makes the song more.. like-able.. hahahah!

Are You Gonna Be My Girl? [ The Jets ] – Getting bored of it..

These are most of the songs I hear a lot! Theres more of course but I can’t think of any right now! Maybe in 2 weeks, I’ll write another one of this again and you can see if Pieces Of Me is still on the top list!

- 2 albums I tell you! 2!!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 10:41 pm | 1 Comments

songs about ME!


no! I'm not putting in the songs just because I want to fill in my blog or wanna show off that I know lyrics of songs OR to just put in songs I currently am into.. NOPE!

ITS NOT THAT!

song that I put in my blog is basically showing how my life is at the moment.. how I feel.. how I am.. and I just think its kinda cool that tehre are songs that can relate to my owh-so-biasa life..

I guess if you see angsty songs in there then thats how I am feeling then.. so far I don't think there are angsty songs so I'm fine.. besides.. I don't think I'd be in the mood to put in songs while I'm angsty.. hahah!

this post is just so you guys know the point of me putting in all these songs.. but nonetheless.. I do love these songs too..

- songs about me!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 3:05 pm | 0 Comments

things I'll NEVER say


I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My checks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head

[pre-Chorus]
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah

[Chorus]
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say

It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care

[pre-Chorus]

[Chorus]

What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say

[pre-Chorus]

Yes I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Yes, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say

- avril's songs have so much to do with my life..

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 2:59 pm | 0 Comments

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

pieces of ME!


On a Monday, I am waiting
Tuesday, I am fading
And by Wednesday, I can't sleep
Then the phone rings, I hear you
And the darkness is a clear view
Cuz you've come to rescue me

Fall... With you, I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

I am moody, messy
I get restless, and it's senseless
How you never seem to care

When I'm angry, you listen
Make me happy is your mission
And you won't stop til I'm there

Fall... Sometimes I fall so fast
Well, I hit that bottom
Crash, you're all I have

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you known me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me

How do you know everything I'm about to say?
Am I that obvious?
And if it's written on my face...
I hope it never goes away... yeah

On a Monday, I am waiting
And by Tuesday, I am fading into your arms...
So I can breathe

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhh
It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real
I like the way that feels
Ohhhhh
It's as if you've know me better than I ever knew myself
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
Ohhhhh
I love how you can tell
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me
All the pieces, pieces, pieces of me...


-ashlee simpsons ROCK!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 3:06 pm | 2 Comments

Monday, July 26, 2004

fall into the PUDDLE OF MUDD!


Listening to : Omar Khan – Baby (ok ok.. miza ur rite.. lagu nih sedap!)

Mood : biasa

Current Status : falling in love with the song..

ARGH!! We have to nyanyi infront of the whole damn school today!!!! I got to school and got excited.. ahahha.. not coz I can’t wait to sing.. just the thought of having to sing in front was terrifying.. I tried to hafal the lagu and I kinda did.. hahaha..

Call me semangat! (and I don’t mean literally Omar!)

We just lined up at the back of the tiang bendera thingy.. me and diana were just laughing before we sang.. and masa tgh nyanyi ada lar parts where we laughed but kena cover and stuff.. it was kinda fun but nerve wrecking.. ahhaha! Song was nice though.. when I haven’t got tired of it!

Melisa told me that having to stand in front of shahrul and sing was annoying.. he kept saying ‘melisa busuk’ or something like that.. I told her that I would marah shahrul.. hahahah!

The whole 3 periods of KH.. OMG! BORINGNYA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! We just talked and DANCED!! HAHAHA! Best giler tau!

Masa BI.. I just.. haih.. dunnolar.. I just got all crazy! You know.. like I always am.. you would too if you’re just sitting there doing NOTHING! Then diana and zaty wrote

BERNARD – shahrul

LIKES

BERNIE – farisa

And passed it to a whole lot of people.. and now zakhreen and shafiq has been teasing me about it.. ARGH!! When zaty was gonna pass it to ereeq, I blocked her and there was the whole struggling for the paper thing… and I knocked of Chiang Shih Wei’s water bottle.. water just spilled on the floor.. A WHOLE LOT OF WATER!

And I had to pay him back… I only brought RM2 and now instead of 2 cups of fries.. I only get to eat one.. haih.. but whateverla kan..

On the way to the canteen, atikah and diana were going all

BERNARD AND BERNIE!!

And I just walked ahead of them by a few steps to get away from it.. shahrul, ereeq and barr (CHOCOLATE BAR!! HAHAHAH!) was in front of me.. pushing each other.. shahrul pused barr (HAHAHHAHAHA!!!) into a puddle but he just dpt tahan or something.. and ereeq pushed shahrul into the puddle of mud and he felt straight into it.. he fell right in front of my eyes.. and I was stunned.. it was pretty funny to see him fall but he was wet all over.. (he really should put on more weight.. but don’t go overboard!) I couldn’t do anything.. I mean I can’t go to him and just go all ‘honey are you ok?’ eee… I’m getting disgusted myself.. so I was just bising the whole time.. saying stuff.. getting mad at ereeq and stuff.. diana and atikah were laughing I think.. I just bising2 and stuff (but I said this already.. ahahha!).. when I met nasriff, I asked him how shahrul was doing.. and he said that shahrul was at the PBSM room coz his hand was cut or something.. is it weird that I freaked out about that?

Atikah and I went to the PBSM room to see him after we ate.. he changed into ereeq’s shirt and his hair was wet.. hahah.. he looked cute.. (ok.. ok..) I was just there.. waiting for him.. with atikah and ereeq.. the girls of the PBSM room were putting bandages or something.. that’s when shafiq and azman joined us.. there were many people then.. who knows why.. he’s so popular a lot of people went to see how he was doing.. he was ok..

When I got to class.. I was just still defending the whole..

BERNARD AND BERNIE!

On the way to agama class, I saw him at the canteen eating.. he looks fine so I’m like.. oklar.. agama class wasn’t very fun.. I didn’t have the mood or I dunno lar..

Balik2 ada geografi pulak.. haih.. 2 periods of BORING geografi.. we did get to draw different types of pukat though.. that’s kinda fun! Hahaha!

Masa math.. I dunno why but I got angsty.. I just wasn’t in the mood.. I buat my math jer and stuff.. itupun sekerat jln.. takda mood.. I was sitting at hon lin’s place sekejap and I scribbled the word SC on his table.. shafiq saw and asked me what SC was and I just smiled and got up and walked away..

Masa nak balik.. I just walked with shahrul.. he said he was fine so whateverlar kan.. a lot of people saw us walking together and they were just smiling and going all.. ‘shahrul…’ pretty embarrassing really.. and shafiq on the on the hand was just going up to us and nyanyi-ing and stuff.. he kept coming byk kali pulak tuh.. apalah..

When we met imran on the way, he told shahrul that he stinks and only then that I smelled the stinky-ness.. ahahha.. but tak kisah sgt lar.. we just talked while waiting for fawwaz to come to the bridge.. haha..

I walked back with shahir and shafiq and they were just joking around.. when we got to my house.. they two boys were playing with my hair and all.. tahpalar..

- I like your hair wet.. you look cuter.. hahaha!

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 3:41 pm | 1 Comments

EVENTFUL week - part2


Listening to : liz phair – Why Can’t I?

Mood : I don’t know..

Current status : malas sgt nak buat apa-apa..

Tuesday – after the whole iesqo’s dad incident, most of the guys didn’t come to school the next day to go mengebumikan the body.. they’re really good friends.. iesqo is very lucky.. the whole day my mind was just thinking about the whole incident.. most of us just senyap jer.. thinking about it too.. really depressing..

Masa pj, me and diana wasn’t up for playing anything so we went to find Mr. Jaacob and ajaked him pergi rumah iesqo to see how he was doing.. lucky he agreed.. Shafiq, Aie and Sachin also went with us.. we just hung out at the house for about 20 minutes.. hahaha.. doing nothing.. we wanted to chat with iesqo but it seems weird coz me and diana are not very close to him and we’re girl and stuff.. but still.. he looked fine..

When we got back to school, I just got really depressed.. which leads to this other thing that really sucks too.. but whatever! I dunno why but I missed shahrul a lot that day.. hahha.. really weird.. I mean, if you think about it.. I saw him in school on Monday, at iesqo’s house on Monday night, and when I went to Iesqo’s house that morning.. ARGH! I dunno why lar..

After school, me and him met up at the bridge (jejantas) in front of the school.. we spent about 2 hours there.. talking.. it was really really fun.. we were just there.. talking for 2 whole hours.. about what.. a lot of stuff.. byk sgt.. and the worst part was.. my tuition teacher and my brother saw us together.. ARGH! that night masa online.. he asked me out again.. to meet me for lunch for the next day.. hahahah…

Wednesday – it was report card day.. I didn’t go to school.. all my friends didn’t go so I’m like.. haih.. at about 11 o’clock, I thought about something that I have to tanya the teacher.. so I ajaked shahir pergi sekolah.. when we got there.. we met tengku shafiq.. we just hung out together.. also, when shafiq indera saw me.. he was all.. ‘shahrul, girlfriend kau dah dtg..’ haih.. apalah..

We just sat there at the canteen.. lepak jap.. then I went to meet the teacher all the way to block flora.. shafiq came to class then to get his bag.. so we just talked for a while while waiting for my turn to talk to the teacher.. he’s really weird person..

When I got back to canteen, me, shahir and shafiq walked back together.. taking pictures and joking around.. its really fun! Hahhaha!

At 4 o’clock, shahrul called and we met at the jejantas again.. but he was really distracted about something coz he said he had to go somwhere and had stuff to do.. I felt weird to be there.. I mean, if he’s busy, he could’ve just cancelled it.. its alright.. Its like, he had to spend time with me.. I just felt kinda guilty and stuff..

Thursday – nothing interesting.. tuition was ok.. the teacher didn’t say anything about what he saw but he didn say something like ‘have you been doing things you shouldn’t have done..’ ARGH!!

Friday – no tecaher for the whole day.. GOD! Boring giler.. what we were doing? I don’t remember.. nothing interesting.. just.. I didn’t go to Iesqo’s house that night coz ada tuition.. the guys went though.. at about 11.40 shahrul masuk net so we just talked like always.. the conversation that night was really nice.. hahah..

Saturday – what do I always do on my Saturday’s? ngaji, classes and classes and stuff lar kan.. when I got to yamaha.. my guitar teacher suruh masuk the studio where we ‘jam’ all the time.. boy’s (afiq his real name..) friends were there playing.. the kinda look like posers so I’m like malas nak layan.. but this one guy.. who knows whats his name.. is a really damn good guitar player.. I was mesmerised by his performance.. they were playing ‘Love is Only A Feeling’ (hahah.. this song reminds me of someone..)

Then we just played lagu the reason once jer.. afiq’s and adlin’s granpa and 8 year old cousin were there too.. I felt uneasy to play the drums yang super loud coz takut the grandpa mati terkejut pulak.. and the cousin was closing his ears.. annoying really.. but mamposlar kan.. main je lar.. they said my drumming was betul already and stuff.. it should be.. having to practise a whole lot of time after I got the song..

Sunday – the whole morning I studied.. then in the afternoon I had to go to my uncle’s house coz its my cousin’s birthday party.. I’m not really close to this side of the family.. and I felt really weird coz my other cousins (yg around my age) wasn’t there.. so I was just there alone.. with all the people I don’t know..

But soon they came and I was all jumping and stuff.. I missed them having to only see them twice a year.. gilakan! Then we played a Harry Potter Happy Family card game.. OMG! Pictures of Daniel and Emma.. I just melted looking at them.. ARGH!!! We played and its fun! They said they got it in england! CURSES!!

I WANT TO GO TO ENGLAND!!!!!!

What would I appreciate when the last time I went to England.. I WAS FREAKING 4 YEARS OLD! By that time.. when asked, I’d probably go all.. ‘Daniel Radcliffe who?’

BITE ME!!

When I got back.. me and ashraf and shahir amin guitar then we went to the padang AND I GOT TO PLAY ON THE SWINGS!! YAY!

That night.. I was doing last minute homework.. hahahah.. then I shamppoed my hair.. then I had to get ready the video player so I can tape the O.C. series for my sister.. (I do this every week so my sister can watch it and not miss any episode.. and what do I get out of all this? Just the happiness of thinking that I did good and helped my sister gain the pleasure of watching her favourite show.. AND WHAT CAN I BUY WITH THAT!?

- am I too nice?

from the mind to the fingers of Farisa Roslan | 3:39 pm | 1 Comments